For the past few days at home, I realized that I have been missing out a lot of things which I should and can be doing. Yet when I asked you about that thing which concerns my future, your reply was hurtful.

Please ask yourself, since young have I wanted anything? When people around me have psp, ps, gb, even toys when I was really young, I have never ever demanded anything from you at all. When I try to make decisions for myself, you always insisted on your own thinking and make me follow your decisions. Have you ever wondered what was my favourite colour, or food, or my favourite subject? Have you really ever wondered what interests me? Or did you ever ask what my ambitions and beliefs were?

All my life, when you objected to my plans, I always followed and never went ahead with it. You always insisted that you are correct. You make decisions out of a ridiculous fengshui/zodiac book. Does that mean that if I buy 10 books for you I dont even have to leave home, cause somehow some book decides that when I step out of the house I will die? I have always followed what you say, I even decide to stay at home most of the times or else you will get angry (somehow you really hate me going out, even if you deny). But what do I get? Nothing.

Have you really supported me in the things I've done? When I see other parents encouraging their children to pursue what they want to, I feel a tinge of sadness and jealousy. When I do something wrong, you chastise me in front of many. When I have something to be proud of, you boast. So now, I have become something just for display?

I am sick and tired of just listening to you. This is my life. I have a choice to how I want to live it regardless of how young I am. This is how I will learn, not sit back and do everything you wish everyday.