I have no idea whats happening to me. I have had this sense of loss, regret and disappointment for the past few weeks. This week was the worst. And I keep telling myself to forget and move on, but I dunno whats holding me back. Perhaps its just a few people who I think they do not deserve what they got. Or maybe I dont deserve it at all. I am lost. Lol. I seriously should stop day dreaming and thinking, but I cant stop when I have to spend 6 whole days in the office rotting/reading books and newspapers and risk getting scolded. And next this week is gonna be the same thing. Oh ya, this guy got some phobia of tanks and when he approached the uncle for ooc or revoc, he told him,' if you dont want to be a commander, then you go be a toilet cleaner.' Was completely LOLed by that, and that uncle should seriously stop being a two faced hypocrite/bastard and really help people and stop caring only for his bonus which I presumed its pegged to the number of specs who can pass out. The world is crashing down upon me. I am stuck in a valley of despair. Help. Lol. =(